Is Planning and Organizing Ever a Bad Thing?

I find that everything goes a little smoother whenever I have a game plan. Anyone else with me on that one? I mean, I don’t have to have every single second planned, but just a generalized plan. I like knowing what I have going on during the day just so I can feel prepared. The feeling of being unprepared just stresses me out. Maybe that is why I always had so much anxiety in the mornings before school (all the way back to middle school). My parents and I have also concluded that meals and snacks are easier for me when I have the majority of them planned. I do a better job of filling up my bubbles whenever I have time to prepare my meals and snacks with my meal plan out. You have probably heard me mention this before. I just thought I would reiterate it so that maybe I will be more motivated to fill up all my bubbles when I am prepping for the day! 🙂

This morning I woke up and fixed my breakfast and snack. I had another bagel with cream cheese, berries and milk. For snack I packed trail mix. Image

At work I did more keying and reconciling along with a few other random tasks my sporadically assigned me. It felt good to get some things done at the office. We worked till a little past one and then we came home for lunch. So it was a little late for  my goal time for lunch, but I handled it well. I made a creation! I was inspired by the HUGE bag of New York Apple we have. I thought about what flavors work well together. I had the sweet apple chicken sausage in the fridge, so I sliced up a link to put inside a quesadilla with thinly sliced apple and white sharp cheddar. Holy Fall flavor to the max. Yum! No apple went to waste. I ate the rest as my side. Image

Once I finished eating I went out to see Vinnie. The sun was finally out so I took advantage of it. It felt great outside and I played some music while I groomed. Perfectly relaxing 🙂 Vinnie’s mane is looking awful though… I don’t think there is anyway I can save it. ImageImageVinnie and G! Vinnie desperately wanted more treats after I put him back in his pasture.

After the barn I got cleaned up and ready to head into Durham for our appointment with Lori. I ate key lime Greek yogurt and pretzels on the way in. It was another great session! We shared how we thought the last week went and what we did differently to reach our goals. We also talked about the things that I did well and the things I still need to work on. We came up with some solutions to go along with that. My dad mentioned that it seems like my fear about ingredients in my food has decreased and I couldn’t agree more. While I still feel some anxiety at times, it definitely isn’t as bad as it used to be. So that was a positive! My parents also said that it my portions seem to have increased a little bit. My dad said that he can tell a difference with my eating during the week at work and the weekends. During the week, especially this past week, I have’t been planning for the days as well as I should have. I was rushing the past few mornings and didn’t have time to make sure I was packing enough things to fill up as many bubbles as possible. And I wasn’t feeling comfortable with going out and buying something to help fill up those bubbles. I admitted that and we discussed it a little. Some solutions we came up with were: keep a selection of food in the kitchen at the office, plan for my days either the night before or wake up earlier, DRINK MORE WATER, have larger portions, have my parents make suggestions, and things like that. We told Lori all about our Friday night adventures where we try a new place for dinner. She said how it was a great idea to have that as something to look forward to, not just because of the food, but because it is a good way to experience new things as a family, which is important to us all. So we got all of our thoughts/concerns out and we have our goals in place for the next week!

My parents stayed for the parent group and I headed home. It was a “free for all” dinner. I don’t know if that is the best way to describe it, but I liked the sound of it. Basically I was on my own for dinner and my parents went out after the session. So I came home and then watched the latest episode of Hart of Dixie on my laptop. I then stuck my chicken cordon bleu in the oven and then did the dishes and cleaned up a little. When my chicken was done I heated up some leftover pasta and a giant carrot that I chopped up in the microwave. Then I cut up my cordon bleu and mixed it all together. Simple and delicious! Image

Now there are a few more things I want to get done before I have my snack and head off to dreamland! I hope everyone had a great day! Who’s ready for the mid-week mark?

Goals For the Week

Today was the usual Tuesday for me: appointments with Mary and Lori. Both sessions went really well I’d say. At Mary’s we discussed how the past week went and what I could have done differently. We talked about what recovery means and I wrote it all down so I could look back on it. It included things like freedom from controlling thoughts, energy, and ability to concentrate. There were a few others as well. Then we built a list of my goals for the week. These goals include eating enough carbs, eating larger meals, letting my parents serve my dinner portions, filling up all my bubbles, and eating at my goal times. I always enjoy my sessions with Mary. I always leave with the motivation to really push my comfort zone!

My appointment with Lori really focused on the family and how we have been functioning. We all talked a lot about our goals from the past week. I mentioned how I felt successful with my new way of organizing my bubbles but how I struggled with eating at decent times. My dad talked about how he tried to recognize when he was being “logic man” where he thinks everything is black or white. He is trying to be more understanding and we talked about how he is too scared to say something to me that he really wants to say because he is worried it will make me not want to eat and he doesn’t want to risk it. My mom talked about how she tried not to go into her “teacher tone” and we all actually talked about that a lot because my dad and I felt like she didn’t quite understand what we meant by that. She really only does it when we are in presence of someone who isn’t family or a close friend. And she said she does it out of fear and anxiety, so I asked her why she goes into teacher tone with us and Lori. I asked what about our meetings with Mary and Lori made her so nervous? She replied that she was scared she was going to say something that would upset me so she would hide behind the teacher tone. I assured her that there was no reason for her to be nervous, and that I don’t want her to give what I called “interview answers” instead of telling me what she is truly thinking or feeling. So I made that a goal for my parents this week. I told them I would like for them to tell me what they really want to say but are just too scared to. Hearing their true thoughts might be just what I need, and if it upsets me then they don’t have to keep doing it. But we will never know if it will work until we try! My goal from from Lori for the week is to be able to tell my parents what they can do and when to help me, or if they say or do something that really helps I am to remember it and let them know for the future. Short-term goals are always useful tools! Do you ever set goals for yourself for the upcoming week?

Last Night

Dinner last night was so good! I will happily share it with you: Cheesy Beef soft tacos. So, I got this recipe off of the back of the Campbell’s Condensed Cheddar Cheese can.


– one pound ground been

– one can condensed cheddar cheese soup

– half a cup salsa (I eye balled it so it could have been more)

– flour tortillas

– shredded lettuce

Ingredients we added, for side or for taco topping: black beans, brown rice, hot sauce 🙂

Directions: brown beef, drain off fat, add can of cheese and salsa, stir occasionally until well heated. Boom, assemble time. So easy, right? And it was so good. My dad said he really didn’t think it was going to be good but he ended up loving it! ImageThen we watched some Monday night TV and then for snack I had homemade yogurt with half an almond butter sandwich. Yes, you read that right, I made homemade yogurt! It was really good, but I need to experiment with different ways to make it a little thicker. ImageI was shocked it actually turned out well!


My breakfast, snack and lunch:ImageBreakfast was greek yogurt and a bagel with strawberry cream cheese. Snack was pretzels and trail mix. Lunch was ramen and a V8. I actually ended up eating lunch at home because we left the office a little after noon. At work I started reconciling checks for another company. My dad has rounds tomorrow so technically I don’t have to go to work, but if I were working for someone who wasn’t my dad I would still go in, so it is the right thing to go I suppose. After lunch at home my dad and I went to the Reuse Warehouse to take a look at the wood that we are going to use for our front porch. It looks killer! I can’t wait. I also browsed around at all the old doors and mantles because I have another idea up my sleeve. Then we were off to Mary and Lori. In between the two appointments I ate a blueberry Larabar. I need to try other flavors because I have heard of a few good ones, but I still have so many from the Costco pack of the blueberry muffin, cashew cookie, and peanut butter cookie. Plus I am trying to add more variety into my snacks and not always go for a bar. I have been doing well with that, but I am getting repetitive with the pretzels and trail mix. But I don’t mind because they are forever going to be yummy. After Lori my parents and I tried a new place for dinner since their parent group was canceled. Dain’s Place on Ninth Street! It was an awesome environment. Very chill. The menu was very simple, too. They had burgers, hot dogs, chicken sandwiches (basically all build-your-own) as well as a few other sandwiches like hot italian sausage, cheesesteak, grilled cheese, fried bologna, BLT and they had appetizers and a few soups and salads. For an appetizer we had pierogies. It was my first time ever having one! I know, how can I be in love with Pittsburgh and never have had a pierogie before? For dinner I just went with a hot dog with spicy mustard. It came with kettle cooked chips and I ate some of them. This was a huge hotdog! Everything there was huge actually! My dad got the cheese steak with tots and it looked like it could feed a small army. My mom got a burger with fries. We all agreed that we would absolutely go back again. I did my best not to allow Eduardo to whisper negative thoughts in my ear! ImageImageImageImage

Sports News: Penguins just won their third game! They beat the Hurricanes, so double hooray! Now I am going to go grab my snack before I catch some Z’s. Hope your Tuesday went well! It’s almost halfway to the weekend 🙂