Let Go and Life Happens

Today’s session with Mary was so great! I like how we talk about things that are completely unrelated to nutrition. I mean, the topics can always be applied someway to relate to a challenge that I have with food, but getting different perspectives on other aspects of life to try and achieve maximum happiness. We both get sidetracked easily during conversation, but that is what makes each session so much fun! We began by talking about her son’s jazz show he was doing tonight that she was attending. He plays the upright bass and had to compose music for everyone else playing tonight. That was interesting to talk about and I hope his show went well! Afterwards I began by talking about my past week. I told her that I pretty much worked all day every day but on Sunday I was able to go to the barn. She asked me what my plan was with Vinnie and I told her that I was thinking about the possibility of showing him again (since my mom and Renee discovered the secret to making horses calm at shows) but maybe just starting with open shows. It is just an idea at the moment. Mary then asked me to describe what showing was like. To me, showing is such a rush of so many emotions. There is excitement and adrenaline mixed with gut wrenching nerves. The feeling after you finish a class is worth all the sweat and tears you poured to get there. Putting yourself out there to be judged and coming out on the other side is such a big accomplishment and something to be proud of, whether or not you won first place or came in last. I always felt like I overcame my biggest fear when I was done with the class and it always made me want to turn right around and do it again. Overcoming fear is just exhilarating. We eventually started talking about the actual food part of my week, and I made a few goals:

  • Be more spontaneous at work: go out to lunch with people if they are going. Be aware of my inner response to the situation and how I feel from the moment it is presented through the time we are eating. Order something that sounds very good. Notice if I am scared of that food. All of these will help me to bond socially with people.
  • Time my meals better while I am at work. Food is not a reward – don’t delay lunch or snack until I am finished with a task. If I am hungry I need to take my break and eat. Even if I am worrying about my task while I am eating, it is still important not to put off nourishing my body, not all eating opportunities are going to be relaxing.

When we talked about social bonding Mary shared a story with me from her weekend at her beach art retreat. She was reading on a bridge because it was just the perfect spot. A woman walked by and said she was searching for a place to read. The woman eventually came back and said that the bridge was the perfect place to read. Mary told her she was about to go have dinner so she could take her spot on the bridge. Well, Mary said her and the woman ended up talking for a while. The woman just really needed to talk about a problem she was having. People aren’t meant to hold everything in and sometimes you just have to say words out loud to realize what needs to be done. Mary of course told the story with much more detail and eloquence, but that was the gist of it. I said it was wonderful how she acted as a human canvas for this woman. She just needed to express everything in her mind and she did so by using Mary as a vessel to hold on to everything that flowed out.

At the end of the session I told her how I was starting to get nervous about my school situation. I should hear back from UNC in about a week and I will hear from State mid-May. She gave me wonderful advice: breath. The right school will happen. I can’t control everything and I should just ket the universe take care of it. The universe will put me in the right place. What ever happens will be the best thing to occur and something wonderful will come from it. Let go and life happens. Sometimes if you try and control things too much, they end up going out of control or pushing away. That was wonderful advice and of course she had a terrific story to go along with the advice. Mary’s stories are the best! She is just amazing. She is like the super nutritionist!

After that appointment I headed home, making a quick stop to get a USB memory stick. I heated up leftovers for lunch and threw an apple in as a side.Image

I worked on transferring pictures to the memory stick before I headed to the barn to hangout with Vinnie! I had a great time grooming and then sitting on the fence watching him. Soooo relaxing 🙂 ImageImageImageImageImage

When I got back home I started cleaning and reorganizing my room. I had to scrape paint up off the floor before I vacuumed and rearranged. I took a break during my room project to have pretzels and greek yogurt.Image

My mom made dinner tonight: turkey burgers, roasted brussels and zucchini. I just had the brussels and then had an addition of a small sweet potato.Image

Now I am watching this intense Pirates game! Hope you had a good day!

Another Day Off :)

Good morning, friends! How are you on this wonderful Tuesday? I am feeling rather chipper this morning, perhaps because I have the day off from work to do whatever I please. Plus I started my morning off with a big, warm breakfast. Image

I have a growing list of things I would like to do today. I do have my appointment with Mary at 12:30 so I am trying to figure out if there is anything else in Durham that I was wanting to do. I know I would like to take the memory card from my camera to get everything put on a disk so I can clear up some memory. Then it is a no brainer that I am going to go spend some time at the barn. I don’t know if I will be able to ride since it rained ALL day yesterday. I wouldn’t mind doing some reading or cleaning. My list is a work in progress haha.

Recap of yesterday

I was up early yesterday to go to the Y with my mom. I had all of my things packed up and ready to go in no time. As I drove in to Durham I ate my two slices of banana bread with cinnamon cream cheese. Excellent fuel for a run! My workout was completed on the treadmill. I decided to do the quick start so I ran for 30 minutes and then did a 5 minute cool down walk at an incline. I ran 3.4 miles in the 30 minutes! That may sound like weak-sauce but that was huge progress for me, especially since I had a week off from running.Image After my run I showered and headed across the street to work. I got there at 8:45 and then was there until about 10pm. It was a really good day! I worked on online orders basically all day. The rain somehow stopped in time for the Bulls to play their game. They moved the starting time up 30 minutes so it was a quick night. That and attendance was only at 300 something… Needless to say, I didn’t have to sit at the register all night. I started working on shirts in the back stock room, trying to organize. Shortly after that, Clayton and I were recruited to build my boss’s desk for his office. I was so excited to do that! If you have been following my blog you know that I love to construct things haha. So we pretty much worked on that for the rest of the night, which was just fine with me. It didn’t even feel like a game day. My snacks and meals from the work day:ImageImageImage I didn’t take a picture of the actual tortellini soup, but I took a picture this morning of the recipe. That works, right? When I got home I talked with my mom for a while because she was assigned by my dad to watch the movie Windtalkers, so we half talked and half watched. And I registered for my next race! I am going to do the 4 mile race because I don’t think I am ready for 10 miles. Plus it is in Chapel Hill, so I know there are going to be a few difficult inclines. I eventually had a bedtime snack of trail mix, pretzels and milk. Then I hit the bed!