If today was any indication of what the year 2014 is going to be like, I am not sure if I am all that excited for it haha. To be fair, it was a good day. It was just filled with a few sad moments and a few frustrating moments. Experiencing all of those emotions is what makes us human though. So maybe that is just my brain’s way of exercising its diversity.
This morning I woke up and as soon as the clock hit 8 I rolled out of bed and put my running shoes on. I went out for my run and then came back and had my chocolate milk. I jumped in the shower before I fixed my breakfast. This morning I decided to make myself a bagel with cream cheese, a two egg veggie scramble, blueberry tea, strawberry banana greek yogurt, and pomegranate arils. It was very good! I worked on the sudoku puzzle before I went to the couch to work on the crossword puzzle with my dad. About half way through I had to leave him on his own because my sister and I were heading to the outlets to do some shopping. I wasn’t really looking for anything in particular, but I was a little upset that I wasn’t happy with anything I saw. I just don’t want to spend money on nice clothing for myself anymore. I think I am just scared that I am going to continue gaining weight and I am no longer going to be able to fit in them. Also I think I was having negative thoughts about my size because I am no longer an extra small and I am almost all the way back to where I was to begin with (at least it feels like that). Plus I am a big people watcher, so seeing all the different women at the stores had me comparing myself to them which is bad, bad, bad! Add that to my resolutions: stop comparing myself to others. I did manage to find a digital food scale for our kitchen. I wanted one mostly for dinner meats, to make sure I am eating enough and my dad isn’t eating too much. Anyways, when we got there I ate the pretzels and trail mix I packed for a snack. It was nice to spend some time just with my sister. She talked to me about her goals for the year and maybe where she would like to see herself 5 years from now. It was nice to hear her share what she was wanting to do.
When we got back home I did a few short rows of knitting before I fixed my lunch. I had soup, a burrito, an apple and carrots. Then I received an email from NC State saying that all of their emails would be sent to my new NC State email address. Well of course I had issues with my log in. It was saying that my account has been disables. I think I have literally spent hours battling the system and I got nowhere. All I could do was send an email to the help desk. Now I just get to wait until I hear back from them. That was causing me so much stress because it bothers and frustrates me that I couldn’t figure it out and get everything sorted out and planned so I could feel like I have everything in order for my online classes. I am starting to freak out and get angry now just thinking about it. Why do some things have to be so complicated? I didn’t enjoy the feelings of stress, anxiety, and aggravation all rolled together.
My battle was put off for a bit of time because it was time for my mom and I to take my sister to the airport. It was sad to say bye. Mostly it is just sad to see my mom so sad. I am going to miss her though. I don’t know when I will get to see her again, but I am sure it will be soon. Hopefully that wasn’t a sign that the year is going to be full of hard goodbyes…
Once my mom and I left the airport we stopped at Earth Fare so get just a few things for dinner and for a snack. Then we went to TJ Maxx for another attempt at shopping. I just knew I really needed a new pair of jeans since I don’t have any that fit. I ended up getting one pair of jeans and 2 pairs of exercise pants. They are all super comfy so I am going to focus on the comfort instead of the size. Then I went to Michaels to get more yarn (I’m obsessed) while my mom ran into Staples to get some things for my dad. On the way home I had yogurt and a bar for my snack.
When I got home I went back to battling NC State email. Still no success. I decided to stop and I helped out a tiny bit with dinner. I played sudoku while I ate. We had chicken and roasted veggies. My mom and I also had sweet potato gnocchi. I have never had it before tonight and I really liked it! I don’t know if we served it right though. We just had it plain and it was a little doughy and dry. Maybe we should have followed the directions on the package and added a sauce to it… oh well! It was still really good and I was happy we finally tried it. I would eat it again. It was a good bubble filler too 😉
So I experienced a lot of emotions today but I am trying not to think about the bad/sad ones. There is nothing I can do about them now, so why worry?
How was your first day of 2014?
How do you serve Gnocchi?