Ok, so that nap yesterday totally screwed me over. I ate a peanut butter ball and washed it down with a glass of milk before I headed to bed. Only, I couldn’t fall asleep and I feel like when I did fall asleep, it was only half way. What an awful night to sleep like that! The extra hour just made the night drag by. I think I just must have been too excited for today.
This morning when I decided it was finally a decent time to leave my bed I headed to the kitchen. My mom joined me but said she couldn’t eat breakfast for another 20 minutes or so (she has to wait a certain time for her medicine). I took that time to plan out my morning so that I filled up my first portion of my meal plan. Once I had it all planned out I got to work on making a creation! I boiled lots of water for my wild berry tea, which I steeped and then popped in the fridge for iced tea. I also steeped some chai tea for my homemade chai tea latte! I made the milk foam simply by shaking the milk in the jar for about 45 seconds and then I stuck it in the microwave for 30 seconds to stabilize the foam. Then I added the tea to it and topped it with cinnamon. Yummm 🙂 I think you might be seeing that every weekend! For breakfast I had two serving of cinnamon and spice instant oatmeal, a spinach mini omelet with colby jack cheese and pico and some berries. That’s a good way to start to morning! Oatmeal + Egg = mega fuel. I think it is a pretty meal too haha. After breakfast I helped my mom in the kitchen for a few minutes before I got ready to go do our Sunday morning groceries. We made our list yesterday but added a few things this morning. We first went to Whole Foods to restock on trail mix and then I also got bagels and bread that are denser than the previous bagels and bread I have had. We could have gotten a lot more at Whole Foods, but I am trying to find the best deals to try and save money. I don’t think I was too successful though. We went to Target to do the rest of our grocery shopping. We got everything we needed for dinners and a few things for lunches and snacks, also some things on clearance that we just couldn’t live without! When we got back to the car I had my snack that I brought with me: an apple and blueberry crisp Clif crunch bar. Once we made it home and got all of the groceries unloaded I got ready to go to the barn. My mom actually joined me today! I hope she enjoyed her time there, brushing old Kasino. I really asked a lot out of Vinnie today. Well, it wasn’t that much but he was acting like I was asking him to jump off a bridge haha. I really pushed him to go faster and then I had him change directions more than once. He seemed so confused but he eventually understood that I wasn’t playing any games. This is him post-confusion, searching for treats…
After the barn I started planning for my afternoon eats. I knew I wanted a pasta portion with tomato basil soup (to make a quick version of lasagna soup) so I went ahead and bubbled that in. Then I tried to figure out things to add to it. I realized that I was falling short on my fat bubbles, but not on any other bubbles. So you know what I did? I added butter. Whaattttt. Yes, butter is pure fat so I added some to my pasta before adding in the soup and spinach. After deciding my snack would be greek yogurt and a pupcake, it was easier to use that butter in my lunch. I added berries as my side to give myself another serving of fruit for the day. Plus my chilled tea. Once I finished my lunch I decided to do some planning for tomorrow so I wouldn’t have to figure it out in the morning. That took me a while haha. Then I started prepping the tools for my closet project! I am making a closet organizer thingy-ma-bobber out of one sheet of plywood. So my dad helped me make all of the necessary cuts for the project. Then it was snack/football time so we called it quits for the day. I had my greek yogurt and pupcake and curled up on the couch. The Steelers aren’t looking so hot, but I am not completely shocked haha. I would say that I have had another good day today! I even told my dad this morning that it was almost time for new jeans because the pair I was wearing are almost getting too tight! That is scary, but the good kind of scary because I am getting better! I have really been pushing myself! Need I remind you, I ADDED BUTTER to my lunch. Even before Eduardo came into my life I wasn’t big on butter. Even spreading it on bread I only liked a tiny, tiny bit that would melt almost instantly so I couldn’t see it. So that was a big deal. I wasn’t skimpy with it either. While it was challenging for me, I didn’t let my fears stand in my way. I can’t believe how much my life has improved since I started standing up to my fears! I feel like I am starting to get back to living my life. I have so much more energy and I am in a better mood. I just wish I could help everyone out there who is struggling with fears and with anxiety. I don’t want anyone to miss out on living their life and I want them to go experience things that they fear so they can feel the exhilaration I felt when I faced my fears. I don’t want to say that I am completely fearless now or anything, because believe me I still have them, but I don’t want them to define who I am.
Well, I might go read or work on my room or something since this game isn’t pretty… I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend as much as possible!