Bye Bye Daylight

Ok, so that nap yesterday totally screwed me over. I ate a peanut butter ball and washed it down with a glass of milk before I headed to bed. Only, I couldn’t fall asleep and I feel like when I did fall asleep, it was only half way. What an awful night to sleep like that! The extra hour just made the night drag by. I think I just must have been too excited for today.

This morning when I decided it was finally a decent time to leave my bed I headed to the kitchen. My mom joined me but said she couldn’t eat breakfast for another 20 minutes or so (she has to wait a certain time for her medicine). I took that time to plan out my morning so that I filled up my first portion of my meal plan. Once I had it all planned out I got to work on making a creation! I boiled lots of water for my wild berry tea, which I steeped and then popped in the fridge for iced tea. I also steeped some chai tea for my homemade chai tea latte!Image I made the milk foam simply by shaking the milk in the jar for about 45 seconds and then I stuck it in the microwave for 30 seconds to stabilize the foam. Then I added the tea to it and topped it with cinnamon. Yummm 🙂 I think you might be seeing that every weekend! For breakfast I had two serving of cinnamon and spice instant oatmeal, a spinach mini omelet with colby jack cheese and pico and some berries.Image That’s a good way to start to morning! Oatmeal + Egg = mega fuel. I think it is a pretty meal too haha. After breakfast I helped my mom in the kitchen for a few minutes before I got ready to go do our Sunday morning groceries. We made our list yesterday but added a few things this morning. We first went to Whole Foods to restock on trail mix and then I also got bagels and bread that are denser than the previous bagels and bread I have had. We could have gotten a lot more at Whole Foods, but I am trying to find the best deals to try and save money. I don’t think I was too successful though. We went to Target to do the rest of our grocery shopping. We got everything we needed for dinners and a few things for lunches and snacks, also some things on clearance that we just couldn’t live without! When we got back to the car I had my snack that I brought with me: an apple and blueberry crisp Clif crunch bar.Image Once we made it home and got all of the groceries unloaded I got ready to go to the barn. My mom actually joined me today! I hope she enjoyed her time there, brushing old Kasino. I really asked a lot out of Vinnie today. Well, it wasn’t that much but he was acting like I was asking him to jump off a bridge haha. I really pushed him to go faster and then I had him change directions more than once. He seemed so confused but he eventually understood that I wasn’t playing any games. This is him post-confusion, searching for treats…Image

After the barn I started planning for my afternoon eats. I knew I wanted a pasta portion with tomato basil soup (to make a quick version of lasagna soup) so I went ahead and bubbled that in. Then I tried to figure out things to add to it. I realized that I was falling short on my fat bubbles, but not on any other bubbles. So you know what I did? I added butter. Whaattttt. Yes, butter is pure fat so I added some to my pasta before adding in the soup and spinach. After deciding my snack would be greek yogurt and a pupcake, it was easier to use that butter in my lunch. I added berries as my side to give myself another serving of fruit for the day. Plus my chilled tea.Image Once I finished my lunch I decided to do some planning for tomorrow so I wouldn’t have to figure it out in the morning. That took me a while haha. Then I started prepping the tools for my closet project! I am making a closet organizer thingy-ma-bobber out of one sheet of plywood. So my dad helped me make all of the necessary cuts for the project. Then it was snack/football time so we called it quits for the day. I had my greek yogurt and pupcake and curled up on the couch.Image The Steelers aren’t looking so hot, but I am not completely shocked haha. I would say that I have had another good day today! I even told my dad this morning that it was almost time for new jeans because the pair I was wearing are almost getting too tight! That is scary, but the good kind of scary because I am getting better! I have really been pushing myself! Need I remind you, I ADDED BUTTER to my lunch. Even before Eduardo came into my life I wasn’t big on butter. Even spreading it on bread I only liked a tiny, tiny bit that would melt almost instantly so I couldn’t see it. So that was a big deal. I wasn’t skimpy with it either. While it was challenging for me, I didn’t let my fears stand in my way. I can’t believe how much my life has improved since I started standing up to my fears! I feel like I am starting to get back to living my life. I have so much more energy and I am in a better mood. I just wish I could help everyone out there who is struggling with fears and with anxiety. I don’t want anyone to miss out on living their life and I want them to go experience things that they fear so they can feel the exhilaration I felt when I faced my fears. I don’t want to say that I am completely fearless now or anything, because believe me I still have them, but I don’t want them to define who I am.

Well, I might go read or work on my room or something since this game isn’t pretty… I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend as much as possible!

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6 thoughts on “Bye Bye Daylight

  1. OMG..I have not read your blog since Friday! All I can say is Wowee, I love your new snack before meal planning, and I teared up when you explained your breakthrough moment…This is what you have been working so hard for…YIPPEE,
    Love you and keep up the great work, you will be riding before you know it…love you

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