WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD. Hello! Last night my parents brought me a chicken fajita from the Mexican restaurant they stopped at. My mom told me all the updates from the other parents at their group meeting. They sound like such a lovely bunch of coconuts! I think they really enjoy chatting with the parents they have met. I ate about half of my fajita. I was still really struggling last night. It was really late when we ate and I was beat so I headed off to bed not long after dinner. I made a to-do list for today while I was waiting for my parent’s to come home. On it I wrote down what I was going to have for breakfast, that way there wouldn’t be any surprises this morning. I was hoping that would help my day by starting my first meal off on a positive note. I think it worked! Even though I woke up at 4:30 in the morning and didn’t fall back asleep until about 6:15, I still managed to have a wonderful day 🙂
For breakfast my mom made her new favorite smoothie, the banana blueberry smoothie with almond milk. Then I scrambled an egg with spinach again and threw it on a toasted english muffin. I then topped it with a little avocado and salsa. What a beautiful combination! Then I was off to the dentist! I think I have discovered another way to motivate myself to get to a healthy weight. I have noticed that when I see people that I haven’t seen in a while (for example: the super nice lady at the chinese place we get take out from or my dental hygienist) they comment on my lost weight and then I can read the concern all over their faces. That makes me want to be healthy again so I don’t have to receive that look anymore. But my dental hygienist actually talked to me a lot about my eating disorder because her daughter also went through the struggles of anorexia. Unlike mine, hers was caused by a virus (which I didn’t know was possible, but it’s so interesting how the human body works!) but she still had a lot of the similar characteristics as me. She wished me the best with getting better, which was so nice of her. My dentist has the sweetest people working there. I love it! Am I weird because I like the dentist? Probably. Do I care? Nope!
Then my mom and I went to the Person Country Animal Shelter… Just to look. We still haven’t talked to my dad about adopting a puppy. Eeeekkkk! We found one that we adored though! She was the cutest little thing. I already decided if we adopted her I would call her Moose. I’m not going to hold my breath though haha. Afterwards we headed home for a few minutes, just to do some laundry and dishes before heading into Durham.
We stopped at the UPS store so I could finally ship my cousin, Madelyne, some things I told her I was giving her. Then we went to lunch at Noodles & Company because it was located right by my therapist. OH MY GOODNESS was it yummy. I actually enjoyed it! What? What was that, Beth? You enjoyed food? Yes, I did. I was so proud of myself. I ordered the Japanese Pan Noodles with shrimp. I even ate it with chop sticks. So much fun! My mom and I sat by the window and chatted about how when I am healthy we both want to start doing yoga. We also talked about what I am thinking I want to do with my future. I really want to learn from my experience with anorexia but I want to do something with my love for physical activity (Personal trainer maybe?) and maybe even nutrition. That way I can help people to live a healthy lifestyle without causing damage to their bodies like I have to mine. All ideas! My therapy session went well. I mostly talked about my social habits, which if you know me have always been the same. I have always been shy and quiet and kind of a home body. That’s just me though, it’s what makes me comfortable. Next event of the day: spur of the moment trip to Mebane to look for throw pillows for the couch. We got everything but throw pillows haha! I got some amazing deals at Oakley! I always forget that store is there, so when I walked by I said to my mom that I wanted to just go take a quick look around. So glad I went in! I got a new bathing suit and two jackets. They were so cheap. It. Was. Awesome. We ran into the Nike outlet as well. The only reason we went in there was so that I could take a picture of the mannequin, you know, for motivation. Am I weird that I wanted to take a picture of the mannequins? Most likely. Do I care? Not one bit! They are my current motivation. I want to fill out my clothing and have strong, healthy muscles. I wouldn’t mind those outfits either haha. We also went into a kitchen ware store so I could get a mini omelet maker to make eggs easily in the morning. We walked around the outlets a little more, looking in all the windows. Then we headed over to Sheets, my favorite gas station ever. I used to think Sheets was so repulsive but now I love it! I picked out a snack, which was wonderful. On our way home we stopped at Weaver Street Market in Hillsborough. It is the cutest little grocery store that sells natural and organic products. We just grabbed a few things. While browsing through the store, we saw this brand of something, I don’t know what it was exactly, but the names were so funny! If I ever got this, I would find a crowded street and walk up and down the sidewalk yelling “I am drinking Fire!!!” I don’t know if I would actually do that, But I would like to think that I would. Am I weird? You betcha. Do I care? Absolutely not!
Now that I am back home I am doing a little relaxing on the couch before dinner. We are having salad and chili mac, which is just my mom’s chili that she put together in the crock pot this morning over some pasta. I think it will be good. I have done so well today, I am determined to keep it up!
Oh! Guess what I got at Weaver Street Market! It was hard for me, but to keep up the momentum of being successful and motivated I got some Ben and Jerry’s half baked froyo. Mary, my nutritionist, told me to start adding in sweets. I haven’t really been comfortable doing that, so she would be so proud of me for taking a step in the right direction.
For some humor for those wanting a good laugh, this is something that I believe I have: