This morning started off alright. I was making my breakfast, but when I was almost done preparing my oatmeal creation, my mom said I didn’t have a choice and had to have a smoothie of some sort. That was the absolute last thing I wanted and I grew very upset. I let my anger get the best of me, which is part of the battle. Once I was done eating I got ready to go to work with my mom. I was under the impression (from an email I received) that I had my therapy session today, that being the reason I was going to work with my mom. I spent most of the morning on the phone trying to get access to the new Duke online reports so I could double check my appointment times and everything. Glad I did that because my appointment isn’t until Wednesday. I then finished up working on the friendship bracelet for my aunt Paula! It’s about time I finished that. My mom and I went to Elmo’s Diner on Ninth Street for lunch. I let her pick the place because after my battle with breakfast I just wasn’t in the mood for making any decision about where to eat. I ordered the grilled hummus sandwich with applesauce. It was just what I needed 🙂Then we went back to my mom’s school for a few hours. I just sat in her office and read more of The Happiness Makeover. I am almost done with it! I am trying really hard to work in some things I have learned from it. Then we headed off to Target to do a little grocery shopping. We got most of the things we needed for the meals we planned for the rest of the week. I also picked up a new flavor of Naked to try for my snack!
Then we stopped at Costco real quick to pick up a rotisserie chicken to use for our dinner. We are currently in the process of making buffalo chicken sandwiches with carrots, potato wedges and stewed squash. I am not sure exactly if I am going to have all of the sides… I am feeling very stressed and panicky at the moment. I really wish these mixed emotions about food would stop flooding me when it is almost time to eat. I know things don’t come easy though. I just have to remember to pause and think about the situation and think about all of the things I will be one step closer to doing if I nourish myself with this meal!